Samasu, Shikou (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
observershikou) wrote2007-07-24 12:21 am
observershikou) wrote2007-07-24 12:21 am
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...Concerning. Very much so.
Miss Sparrow may have blocked me from gaining contact with her, but... I'm worried. I'm far too worried. This feels far too much like what I've witnessed, with the Hikari no Kessha.
That Yamashita, as well... I can't help but feel that she's been tampered with as well, seeing how she seems to show appreciation to this "God"...
...This "God" that has done something to my brother, as well...
I'm not going to give up, though. I'm not going to stand by as someone I like becomes "tampered" with.
...I'm not going to fail, for once.
Miss Sparrow may have blocked me from gaining contact with her, but... I'm worried. I'm far too worried. This feels far too much like what I've witnessed, with the Hikari no Kessha.
That Yamashita, as well... I can't help but feel that she's been tampered with as well, seeing how she seems to show appreciation to this "God"...
...This "God" that has done something to my brother, as well...
I'm not going to give up, though. I'm not going to stand by as someone I like becomes "tampered" with.
...I'm not going to fail, for once.
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...Then it's their problem. After they see that one person has been harmed as a result of it, they might realize that their duel disks might have that problem, as well. However, if they don't know that the safeties are off, they aren't under the intent of actually killing someone.
...I... I don't think I will. I place my morals well above pleasure.
...There's a chance that it wouldn't, though. No one can know for certain.
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And you realize a ton of people are dueling at once... it makes the catastrophe more sweet.
That's rather stupid. Pleasure is the base of all existence.
Seriously, just to a stare at her flanks and rump.
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....Impossible. There will always be a point in which others will realize just what is going on. Even if people are dueling simultaneously, they'll begin to realize just how much those attacks hurt.
Yet people tend to look at what pleasure is to them quite differently from others... Besides, it would be terrible, if I were to give into that.
...
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Humans are rather foolish.
What? It would be terrible to be YOURSELF?
Trust me, no other girl on this island is going to have a backside as juicy as her's.
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Of course. But at least someone will have enough sense to notice.
....It would be. It would be terrible for myself, and for everyone else.
...You're-... No, I'm not going to even think about that.
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On this island, I highly doubt that.
You Samasus, always denying your inner passions.
How rude to not finish a thought. Trust me, it's a fine mix of firmness and bounce.
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...Mn. It would still be different. That would be because of their own idiocy, not of actually attempting to do so.
It would make sense to.
...To finish that thought would have quite a negative effect on my mental health.
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Silly silly boy.
No it doesn't. Hate. Love. Cruelty. Hunger. Malice. Gluttony. Lust. Greed. Pride. Envy. Anger. Laziness. Why should inhibit our inner desires?
FINISH IT.
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Not entirely. Just looking at other possibilities.
Because it would threaten the safety of others.
...I can't finish something that I don't want to acknowledge.
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Heh.
No body else matters, Shikou.
Acknowledge WHO YOU ARE. You want to crunch on her cooked body.
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They do, to me... There are some that I care for, and I wouldn't want what I want, to threaten them.
I... I'm very well aware of who and what I am. However... I can't stand the thought of killing someone, even if it is to satisfy my personal tastes... Tastes that I don't even want. Tastes that I have under control. A lot better than you would probably expect.
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But do they care for you back?
You are aware of who you are.
Life has no meaning, Shikou. There is no point.
Your joys and passions are all you have.
Your tastes are what you have.
You want them.
You don't want them controlled.
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...I'm sure they do.
...Life has quite a bit of meaning. You may claim that what I want... Is all that I'll have, but... I don't want them to harm others. I may want them, but... My desire to make sure no one else becomes aware of that, or is harmed by it, is a bit greater than my want to let that consume me.
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I think you're beginning to realize just who I am.
But have they said it?
Life has no meaning other than what you make it.
You want it. Well. The darkest, blackest reachs of your heart hungers and yearns for it.
Their life has no value, Shikou. This is the ultimate truth of life.
Of existence.
There is no point. No destiny. No goals. No special reason.
You want it. Let your heart beat like the beastial child you used to be.
Cross the void, and slip into the real you.
Let your want ache. Let it tremble. Let it consume you.
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If there was a need to ask, I would do so. I'm not worried of whether or not someone cares about me.
...I'm not going to let it. My want is a minor concern... Just minor. Easily silenced, and not something I should dwell on... There's more to life, to me, than to give into being what... What I should be.
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I am the most blessed.
Is that true?
Nobody really wants you around. Do they? Do they actually need you?
Your want is your entire foundation for being. To disregard it is to build yourself on shaky foundations.
It's not a quiet girl who's scared. It's a beast banging and rattling it's cage.
There is nothing more to life, Shikou, darling. Beloved.
BE WHAT YOU WERE BORN TO BE.
BE WHAT YOU SHOULD BE.
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...Of course it's true. I don't need to assure myself of that... As for if people really need me... It doesn't matter. I still care for them, even if they don't need me to be around.
...I... I...... I wasn't born to be like that. While these tastes may have developed... It doesn't mean I was born with them. It doesn't mean I should listen to them, or if I should give into them... You may be trying to convince me otherwise, but... I'm not going to let that happen.
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I am the encourager of inner sin. And there's nothing wrong with indulging in sin.
Yes you do. Everyone needs assurance.
Your worst fear is to realize that nobody loves you. Isn't that true?
To realize, like Ms. Sparrow, your life is baseless and without any merit.
Why care about a bunch of brattish ingrates who want nothing to do with you?
You were born to be an animal, Shikou.
You are the perfect killer. The ultimate in death.
You were born to be a lion amongst sheep.
Listen to the screams of your heart.
Give into the animal you are.
You will let it happen to yourself.
::Licks popsicle::
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Much... Much more... I don't want to become a monster... A beast... A animal... I don't wish to be a killer, and I don't want to hurt them... Those sheep, as you compared them to... Those screams... They can be ignored, even if it's just for long enough...
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All we have is base needs, Shikou, darling.
You fear the face smiling at you in a mirror darkly.
All we are are monsters, beasts, animals, Shikou, sweety.
You wish to kill. To eat. To nourish.
You want to harm. To hunt down. To pounce. To bite into the flesh of girls.
Those sheep scream beautifully.
Those screams make you happy.
To ignore it would be childish.
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...Those screams... They are... They...... They're not something that I want to hear... I don't want to make them do so... I don't... I don't... I do-...
...Just why are you doing this? What gain would you have from trying to make me give into these desires? What would the point be, to convince me of what I want is greater than what I wish for?
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Those screams are beautiful, love.
You want to hear them every day and night.
You want to do it. Do it.
Because... Shikou, I love you.
I wish to make a world of dark hearts. To have everyone's inner desires reveal themselves.
I wish to see everyone become what their true potential allows them.
I wish to see you crack so I can see the beautiful monster underneath a naive boy.
You want nothing more than to Eat.
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...They....... They are, aren't they. They are beautiful... But I don't want to hear them. I don't want to live with that feeling... I don't... I can't let this...
...Love? You love me? ...Even if that were to be true, I can't return that. If that were to be true... You wouldn't be doing this, to me... To make me become consumed by my hunger... To see me crack, and to become a monster...
I can't let myself do that... Not for anyone... Not to anyone... Never, never, never...
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They are beautiful.
You want to hear them.
You want to enjoy their pain.
I love you. And I wish to make you all you were capable of becoming.
I want your hunger to boil. To spoil over.
I love to see the worst of humanity!
Let it consume you. Let Shikou Samasu fade away, and hate me, as the demon of gluttony consumes you, body and soul.
AHAHAHAHA.
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...I... I do, I really do, but... I can't. I can't allow myself to do that... I can't, I can't, I can't... It would... It wouldn't be right at all.
...There... There is someone else you love, already... Even if I were to hate you... That would be listening to you, wouldn't it? It would contradict it, if I were to hate you... Yet I can't love you, either... I could never love a being like you, for trying to do this... For trying to make me into a monster...
Samasu Shikou won't fade away, in light of that... He'll be staying to fight against those desires, no matter what...
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