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I guess I should have expected this. I guess... I really should have. I dislike it when my paranoia comes to light like this...

But it happens when something becomes out of control.

But since when did I have control in this? Wait, I do. I'm... But am I, right now? Keh. I wouldn't be so scared... So confused... So hesitant about this, if I completely was.

...He stated that change can be bad. But this world... It's disgusting. So much hardship... So much pain... So what if millions would be hurt? I'd be fixing it all, regardless, so that millions more can be content.

...I really am tired of everything, though... But why should I be? What's one day? One week? One month? One year, to what's already gone by? What is this wait to what I have already had the patience for?

Why wouldn't I have ambition for this? It's already been done before! ...But isn't that one of the problems? A past I can't recover... Pride and vanity blocking my success...

...And then there's the fact that I'm insane and a monster. A monster... Isn't that one of the reasons why I'm doing this? So I didn't become a monster?

...And yet I am... I admit to it, I'm nothing more than...

...At the price of my dreams...

...He said I was going to lose, as well...

...Hah...Hahahah... Lose, huh? Fine then, if that's what will occur, then that's what's going to occur.

Doesn't mean I won't go down fighting for this, even if everyone else thinks that this is harmful. I shouldn't care about whether they think it's harmful at all... It's nothing more than a distracting emotion, after all.

When that star comes... I'll make sure to throw away that troublesome hesitation of mine, and make sure to aim for the remaking of the world...

That is my priority, after all. To remake everything. To fix it all... Even with the pain and suffering.

As for right now, however... I need to decide on a different approach.