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I got a new PDA. The other one is a bit... Broken up, I'd say. ~~I don't even really trust to pick up the pieces, at this point...~~

Last night was actually quite... Lovely. I really can see why I stay here... Even with all the oddities and the like, the people here are just... Wonderful. It makes me glad to have helped someone, and in that, I feel better, because doing so helped me as well... And it makes me feel even more so, to hear that someone wouldn't want me to become a monster.

...Though, I apparently missed something, during that time, didn't I?

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That's awesome. ^^ That too. I...don't want to question on how I could've made you felt full another way.

"Natural" is definitely not taking over a German boy ~~putting him in LEATHER~~, almost turning this school into a cult all over again (...I admit now, it was a cult c.c), and now this. ._.;

Yeah...they're really toying with us all. Their temptation was impossible not to fall into...so maybe it wasn't just me for being weak.

I wouldn't want you to ask, regardless, Yasu. That's one thing I need to keep my mind off of.

Mn... Definitely not. Hope this will stop eventually, though. Even with all the things that have happened here... This is really one of the highest on the list, isn't it?

...It's not just you. I can assure you of that. I'm surprised I haven't given in by now, as it is.

Good point. Sorry for that. D:

Like I said, it will...eventually...hopefully. Why am I expecting that dense red kid to save the academy (again?) and then run off with Mr. Anderson?

I guess I can give into anything that...sounded that sweet.

It's alright, Yasu.

...Because, as far as we know, that's what will happen?

Anyone could give into something like that.... I don't think there are really exceptions to the case.

Glad your mind can avoid such thoughts like it... .-.

...how predictable this school is. D| With all the random ass weird things that go on plus the big bad villains that come and go, nothing seems like a surprise anymore.

Humans...seem to desire so much. Desire seems to destroy everything...like one's sanity, huh.

It's a lot harder than you think, believe me. But if I can manage to stay near the first person I was being tempted to eat, I think I can manage it being mentioned.

I think we've just gotten used to it.

Yeah... I guess that's why some people strive to avoid desire, right? Others just replace that desire with something else.

Uebel just makes it all the more difficult... .-. Good luck. Don't listen to them. D|

Too used to it. The island would sink if there was a period of normal.

What's the something else...?

I'll try not to. Again, it's also a lot harder than one thinks.

Yeah, probably. I would think some wouldn't be pleased with that.

...A different desire, perhaps?

Just remember those who want to keep you sane. I'm sure there's a couple of people important to you in that way...

...maybe I should get a job here, huh. D|;

But desires in general seem to devour every other feeling. It just takes you over.

...There are. I'm speaking to one of them right now.

You'll miss this place that much?

I guess it just depends on the desire... While I may have the desire to consume others, I tend to... Replace that, with the desire to help others.

Good...who's that? o_o

Perhaps. Or I'll just get so tired of the normality in the outside world and drive myself back here.

Touche. So replace it with a positive desire, huh...I guess what I desired...was lust and love. Two things so close their complete opposites.

You, Yasu.

...Mn. Watch, that will end up happening to a lot of people who leave here.

Mn... In a way, you should be able to do the same as me. It would be able to satisfy the desire for love, at least, with the gratefulness that others will give you, at your help.

...buh. Hah, thanks. ._.

Probably. This place is charming in a...really screwed up way.

Hmm, yeah. Though, I'm not much of a helper type...moreso a wrecker. >> But new things are always up there to try. D|;

You're welcome, Yasu.

...Yeah, in a way. I like it, at least. It's comfortable here.

One would think that I would be horrible at helping others, given how my self-control has lessened over the past few weeks. And yet look: I helped you, right?

I'm...flattered, I guess. Never really felt *that* important to someone.

Even outside it seems comfortable...when you get rid of the risk of being violated or eaten by bears and other things out there. .-.

As always, anything's possible if you put your mind to it...so I guess I should too.

I don't see how you can't be, Yasu. Everyone is important to someone; you just need to find the one who thinks of you as "important".

I think that's why I'm comfortable. Things like that tend to not bother me.

You probably should.

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