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[observershikou]

It's a pity, when one can't trust another.

It's sad, when suspicion must breed.

It's horrible, when lies and deceit run rampant.

It's depressing, when once must decide whether to be aware of them, or to stay blissfully oblivious.

Hahahah... At least my own indecision won't be lasting long...

Though, I think I missed something that happened... Guess it's just another thing that's going to end up happening, huh?

Just another thing... Just another thing...

Comments

[kanna-chan.livejournal.com]

... are you okay?

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'm fine, Kanna. You?

[kanna-chan.livejournal.com]

... just checking, is all.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Mn... I know that it doesn't really look very... Good, when you glance at it.

But even then, I won't know for sure what it is, until tomorrow. I'll be sure to tell you what it is about, though, when I'm sure of it.

Still. How are you?

[kanna-chan.livejournal.com]

... what what is?

Figured out my shitty luck is marketable as a high risk weapon.

[the-big-oh.livejournal.com]

Hrrrm, small fuzzy Chink?

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Hello, sir. Samasu Shikou.

My own thoughts towards recent events that have taken place. Quite unpleasant, I'd say.

[the-big-oh.livejournal.com]

Care to clarify, シコウ・サマス?

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

They involve someone I care about, and those that they are speaking and interacting with, as well as suspicions that they might be in contact with one who they should be well aware means nothing but harm. I can't really "clarify" at this moment, though. Too much is... Uncertain.

Tomorrow, I may be able to. Tomorrow is when I should be able to clarify quite a few things, because I will have been "clarified" myself.

I appreciate you showing curiosity towards this though, sir.

[the-big-oh.livejournal.com]

So you're concerned someone's having a sexual affair behind your back.

Very well.

I'm American. I have to be curious about everything, small resident of the US world.

[artof-zen.livejournal.com]

And what is it exactly you've learned of human nature then?

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Human nature can be a lot of things, Miss Yuuko. It's human nature to lie. To hide what they deem to be unsatisfactory. To act. To show suspicion... Sadly, that is what human nature is.

However, human nature... Can be a lot more than that. It is in human nature to show restraint when needed. Care. Hope. Fear. Worry.

As part of human nature, I have to hope that what I worry about, and what I show suspicion about, isn't true.

[artof-zen.livejournal.com]

That merely means there are many things to being a natural human. Not that there are different typs of human nature.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Of course, Miss Yuuko.

However, I don't know of all the different types. I just hope that one certain type isn't present, in the one I care about.

But... Ah, I'll know tomorrow, possibly, if things go well.

[artof-zen.livejournal.com]

Types? No. Strongest traits? Yes.

Think of it like genetics, Shikou. Dominant traits from bloodlines can be anywhere, and then those small traits that are from generations back can reappear at any moment.

[captaindarkness.livejournal.com]

Don't you hate dirty liars?

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Can't say I hate them.

[captaindarkness.livejournal.com]

Oh yes, you're the broken doll that's not quite human.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

You've already tried the "not quite human" thing, though I think "doll" is different.

[captaindarkness.livejournal.com]

Well, I still have a point.

[Private with Shikou]

[foreverchilled.livejournal.com]

...I hate to say it, but I find myself feeling like that a lot lately.

...but the important thing is that I know you're feeling that way about Suzume.

Re: [Private with Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Mn...

I have my reasons to feel that way about her. Is there a problem with it?

Re: [Private with Shikou]

[foreverchilled.livejournal.com]

She knows you're suspicious of her. She feels hopeless because of it. She really feels like she can't do anything right anymore, and like even those close to her can't believe in her anymore. Can you imagine how that feels??

Re: [Private with Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

I'm well aware that she knows that I'm suspicious of her. I spoke at length with her, about this. And she has admitted that something is going on, that she apparently can't say.

I'm not one to be suspicious of others without reason, Miss Ethelinda. It's not in me, to be so. I'm well aware as to how it feels, because my own brother had to feel suspicious of my own existence, for more than a year.

Don't be so quick to judge, when you hear only one side of a story.

Re: [Private with Shikou]

[foreverchilled.livejournal.com]

That's not the point at all, and the fact you see it that way is a bad sign.

The point is that while you may feel suspicious and not agree with her choices, the best thing you can do right now is still be there... even if you can't support what she's chosen to do, you should still be able to support Suzume herself.

And if you do, in fact, love her, remind her of that. You have your view, she has hers. You can try to convince her of yours, and try to listen to understand her own. Even if that doesn't work, you need to still be there to support her emotionally... and if she really has made a bad choice... she's going to need you, and the best way is to let her know you'll be there if/when she needs you.