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*There's a cannibal waiting in the park, for Juudai. He seems to be plucking and tugging at his shirt with a bandaged hand, as though... Uncomfortable in it, looking vaguely ashamed of himself... And slightly embarrassed. And basically looks a bit like he never really got to sleep, isn't that nice?

Also, for you to note, Juudai, when you get there... There's no birds around. No sorts of animal-life. Other than a couple people who are there... It's pretty much silent, the fountain in the middle being the main source of noise.

You are so welcome to notice that and wonder who turned down the volume.*

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*... Taken a bit aback by the fact that Juudai would even be touching him. He doesn't expect comfort, at this point. But he stops crushing the poor baked goods at least.*

Not because I didn't care about her. But because I treated her like nothing. Something that was worthless, after the use was spent... Even though I had tried to speak to her, after I had managed to calm myself... All she could see me as was a monster. A horrible creature.

And after she... How do I put this... Basically switched ourselves, I got why she'd think that... Including with the fact that I didn't even step in to save her, when Gren Maju Da Eiza went after her.

*Juudai removes his hand from Shikou's shoulder and resumes listening to him*

I see...

*Rubs his shoulder, where Juudai had touched him. He actually seems vaguely... Thankful about that.*

... I really never meant to treat her like that... Frankly, every memory she forced into my head... Every action she took as she took my form, and acted like me... It was all foreign. I couldn't understand the logic behind it. I couldn't understand why I'd even act like it...

It was like that wasn't even me... *shakes his head slightly.*

I keep getting off-tangent about this stuff... Sorry, Juudai. This is probably a lot to have to hear.

It's okay.

I guess all kinds of things can influence how you think. Hell, I guess in one way I've done that myself... not acted like myself and hurt people, but it's not something I'd do now, it was the influence of my powers. Just like how you acted, well... must of been an influence from what you were going through at the time.
You wouldn't do anything like that now.

... Yeah... I guess I wouldn't.

But it doesn't fix the fact that I'm still a monster... Even I see myself as that, without Noriko's... Help, I guess it would be... *He looks at the broken apart donut in his hand, and sighs, eating a bit more of it. Coughs lightly after swallowing.*

Keh... I even hurt the people I go and care about... All because they had instigated it first, doesn't mean that I should have hurt them, like that... *Mutters.* I hope they're at least alright... Their wrists probably hurt, by the end of that... But with what they were trying to do...

"Their wrists probably hurt...?" Who are you talking about?

Shiyoko... Shiroko... I think it might have been more Shiyoko, but...

I found them last night, while I was walking around... *He closes his eyes, shaking his head. As though trying to shake off something.*

She... Didn't recognize me. Said that she had dropped out of school years ago, despite having only been there last week... That all she was, was some prostitute. Wouldn't even give a name. Becoming violent even after I pointed out that her smoking was unhealthy, before everything else...

*He curls up slightly onto the bench, looking relatively... Hurt, actually.* But it was them. It's not easy to hide certain... Things from me. Scents. Sounds. It all matched to her... But why she'd suddenly go and act like that...?

...maybe somebody made her think that way. Messed around with her memories, something like that.

... Maybe... I really hope not, though. I really... Really hope not. To think that someone might have messed with her like that...

It'd be horrible, really, to think that someone like them would be messed with again, so soon...

The only thing I can think that would of done that, is Noriko and Gren...
...or... the creature hidden behind them...
...though it could be something completely different, there's no way to really know for sure.

But they've proved more than once, that they can change personalities and memories to their will.

*Nods slightly, looking morose. A small bird flutters over, it obviously either brave or a fool, making probably the only sound that has been heard, other than the talking and the fountain, itself. Shikou stares at the bird, watching it.*

... Though why they'd even do that... I wouldn't know. Noriko had already possessed Shiyoko, before... And caused Shiroko so much distress... Why deal with them, again, especially after she finally managed to get a grip back onto her existence...? Just to make them hurt again?

*Juudai follows his gaze towards the bird*

I really don't know... but she's gone after Isabel and done things to her numerous times ... but the most recent we believe was done by this creature that lurks behind them.
So... I'm a little worried that same creature might be the reason Shiyoko is acting the way you described...

I really can't be sure.

... I don't think anyone can really be... "Sure"... Though... What if it's just another personality, that formed? I know that at least two others have, besides them... Though why they'd make a personality like that...

*The bird flutters a bit closer over to them. Shikou's good hand sorta... Twitches, as though in anticipation.*

*Juudai doesn't notice the twitch, he's watching the bird*

That's true... it really could just be that...
...I really hope there's a way to get her out of it though. It's not safe for her.

... It isn't. Frankly, I shouldn't have even walked away, when she told me to. I should have brought her somewhere safe, until I could have found some way to help... Help her... To...

*The bird gets closer as he talks, within arm's reach of Shikou... At which then he suddenly lashes out at it, as though to grab it, much effectively scaring it away... And making him lose his balance on the bench, falling over himself. He mutters a few words of pain, as the couple other people who are in the park stare at him, for doing that.*

Usually tend to have better control over that, that lucky little...

Shikou!

*Juudai kneels down to help him up, as he looks at Shikou, he looks concerned*

*Gets helped up, though he seems rather... Awkward. His hand is still twitching, and he keeps staring at the spot that the bird used to be in.*

... Ah... Thanks, Juudai. For the help.

No problem.

*Juudai looks down and notices that Shikou's hand is twitching*

Shikou...

*... looks down at his hand, and then grabs it with the bandaged one, trying to make it stop. He looks ashamed of himself, again.*

It's getting harder to control that... Though I guess it'd make sense. Big city. So many people. Been quite a while, since the last session... I liked it better on the island. The clean air. The forest... I had a much easier time, ironically, staying under control there, despite all of that...

... Maybe I should go, before I do something else I end up regretting.

*As he talks, Juudai puts a hand on his shoulder again*

It might be for the best, yeah.

I really hope you're all allowed back to the Academy soon.

But until then, hang in there, I know you can.

*Nods slightly.* Yeah... I can. Just... Need to find a better way to control myself, over this... I can't let certain people notice, or...

*He backs away slightly from Juudai.* Sorry that I told you so much... To place any sort of burden onto you... Please forgive me, if you can. *He bows, and then turns, leaving. Quickly.*

I... *Wow he moves fast, so Juudai just watches him make a quick exit*

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