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Well, I feel much more content now. My back may hurt from sleeping against a wall, but... At least Miss Sparrow finally realized what was happening.

As for that... Other problem... Mng. I'm probably going to have to ask them to schedule me for a session at the end of the school year.

I'm sure I can at least last that long, without the temptation showing itself again in a way that I can't stand it.

...I'm sure of it.

...It doesn't help that it feels like I'm starving now... Their words really did affect me. I didn't want them to, but... A part of me wanted to keep listening, and to give in... Now I can't help but imagine just how well Yamashita might have tasted, had I given in.

...I'm still glad that I didn't, though. I don't want to be taken away from this place. I'll... I'll just need to make sure that their words don't affect me as much, anymore.

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I'm curious, "brother". That's all.

...Mn. That one, then? Why is it a problem now?

...Mn. I thought you might have been concerned, for once.

...Someone dragged it up forcefully from the deepest depths of my mind, you might say.

......No. Just curiosity, "brother".

That never is pleasant, now is it? At least you haven't tried anything; I'm sure I would've heard if you did.

....

...Yeah. You probably would have... I'm glad that nothing actually happened, regarding that.

I think Yamashita and Kanna know about it now, though.

...Yes?

For the best, I'd say, then. It's bad enough people are scared of me; don't need another one being so, as well.

Don't really know much about "Yamashita", but... Kanna knows? How did she figure it out?

...You hesitated.

...Yeah. You're right. Don't need both Samasus to be feared, do we?

I... Ended up having to admit it to her. She took it surprisingly well, really... It honestly is the only thing that really made me stop and think about what I was doing.

Your imagination.

...Mn. Of course. It'd be... Troublesome.

At least she's open-minded about that kind of stuff... Nice to at least know someone who would be accepting of it.

Mn.

Of course. The school would be wary of us, we might be restrained and locked up, we might be considered a threat... The possibilities of us being feared would be endless. At least having one Samasu being considered "normal", would keep us relatively safe.

Yeah... It is nice. Wish others could be like that.

And disappointingly for me, you're the only one who is considered to be relatively so.

It'd be boring if they were. Nice to have variety.

At least you have some use for me.

Of course. Just have to make sure to stay close to those few who are acceptant.

...Of course I do.

I suggest you do that, then. Never know when you might need those few to help keep your "normal" appearance.

...Right, Souha. You're right. Maybe that's what I'll try to do, for a while.

...You called me by my name.

Go ahead and do so.

...! I did, didn't I? I'm sorry, brother. I guess I slipped.

Will do, then.

...It's alright. You can call me that.

...Thanks, Souha.

...You can call me "Shikou", for the record.

I suggest not pushing your luck.

Acknowledged.

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