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Well, I feel much more content now. My back may hurt from sleeping against a wall, but... At least Miss Sparrow finally realized what was happening.

As for that... Other problem... Mng. I'm probably going to have to ask them to schedule me for a session at the end of the school year.

I'm sure I can at least last that long, without the temptation showing itself again in a way that I can't stand it.

...I'm sure of it.

...It doesn't help that it feels like I'm starving now... Their words really did affect me. I didn't want them to, but... A part of me wanted to keep listening, and to give in... Now I can't help but imagine just how well Yamashita might have tasted, had I given in.

...I'm still glad that I didn't, though. I don't want to be taken away from this place. I'll... I'll just need to make sure that their words don't affect me as much, anymore.

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...Mn. I think I would've expected that.

He was. A great person to speak to, very caring.

Of course I would. Don't think anyone wouldn't look silly in that.

...It helps me to reassert myself.

Hope you have no problems with either. :X

Ah. That's good.

Yeah. But you espically. :P

Reassert yourself?

No, not really. Go right ahead.

It was.

I'm sure there's others that would look sillier, Miss Sparrow.

...Yeah. Reassert myself, and what I believe in. It's... Surprisingly difficult, to get back on ones' feet, after someone tries to break you down to what your base desires are.

Thanks.

Good.

You'd still look silly.

... ._. Yasu tried to turn you into something too?

You're welcome.

Of course I would. I didn't object to that, now did I?

...No. Not Yamashita. Someone else did.

No. YOU'RE WELCOME. ;)

No you didn't.

Who did it if it wasn't crazy lesbo lady?

...Thanks, then?

Exactly.

...Her "god".

I SUPPOSE. ^^;

Just as long as you don't swing a Cricket bat at me. D:

... Uh... Okay. Care to elaborate.

No, I think you're safe from that. ~~Wouldn't need one, anyway.~~

He calls himself a "god of sin", basically. Odd blue-ish hair, seems to have a unhealthy taste in leather clothing. Disturbing eyes. He... He tried for a bit, to make me give into my urges, and my desires, and I almost did... He's charismatic, you might say. Even if you know what he's saying is wrong... You tend to listen, regardless.

Wrestler then?

... Blue hair. Blue hair...

What did this blue hair look like? o_O ::Rubs chin:: Oddish Blue hair...

Leather. e.e Bleh.

Ah? He tried to turn you into a Supervillain? D:

Though, the old proverb: "Those who give up are already defeated."

No, don't think so. He was definitely... Supernatural.

Spiky. Seemed to have no real sense of form and gravity, really.

...You could call it that. I think he referred to me as a monster, more than a villain.

Which is why I'm glad I didn't give up.

I meant you.

If you wouldn't need a bat, you have to have good arms.

Hrrrm. e.e Sounds familiar. For SOME reason, it REALLY does sound familiar.

... Well, your hair is a mess, but you're not exactly Grendel, ya know.

Good. D:

...Me? No, I... Don't really like wrestling.

Of course. That's what I mean, correct?

Mn... Mind telling me if anyone comes to mind?

I'm aware that it's a mess. I prefer it that way, but at least it doesn't defy gravity itself.

I guess so. Boxer then?

Uh... that Marufuji kid. e.e Johan Neo Anderson whatever. Hell Kaiser.

That Masuyo kid too... e.e

You still look decent though. You wear messes maturely.

No. I don't take a active part in that. Tends to do more harm than good, for me.

...Johan Andersen, you mean? That student that came from the North School, at the beginning of the year? Though, you might not have been around, for that...

...Masuyo?

...Thanks for the compliment, Miss Sparrow.

Ah? What's your training in then.

I was. I didn't get onto LJ until recently. I've been here since the School Year started, Shikou.

Some weird Osiris Red that cuts himself and swings around a replica sword. Though, he looks like an Anime character.

No problem.

No specific areas... I think it all just adds up to that I know self-defense quite well, and that's all I really need to think of it as.

Then you know of Mr. Andersen, then... I haven't heard of him, in a while.

...A..... No, not going to ask... But it doesn't really sound healthy for someone to do that.

Oh ah.

Well, if I remember, he didn't come back with most of us.

To do what? O_o Cut himself? If so. I agree.

Let me guess, tempted.

...Mn. Then maybe that's who it is... He does seem to match what little I remember of Mr. Andersen's appearance... Someone like that doesn't really leave your mind, with how he looks.

Of course.

....N...No, Miss Sparrow. Not tempted... ~~Hard to when I've never seen him, anyway.~~

Maybe it is Mr. Andersen... but doesn't sound like his personality...

Probably has some sort of reason.

Then why are you stuttering, Shikou. If you don't let me in, I'll just go and let Yasu turn me back into a sissy. :P

...Maybe something happened to him.

Hopefully, it's a good one.

...F...Fine, so I am tempted... Slightly. But... It's alright, as long as I never see it actually happening.

But why would he claim to be a good? I thought he was a very intelligent if fruity German duelist.

Wonder what it is.

Ah? Cutting makes you think of meat and blood, which in turn makes you hungry? It's okay Shikou. You've got me to help you.

That's what friends are for, right?

Shikou is Shikou is Shikou, and nobody can change Shikou into not a Shikou.

He was a champion, I believe? I'm sure he was intelligent...

...Who knows what happened, though. Not sure if I should ask.

...You're right, Miss Sparrow... Thank you... But it's still a very... Interesting mental image, for me at least. It doesn't really help, but... I'm sure I can manage.

...Yeah. No one can change Shikou into someone that isn't Shikou... Mn.

Either that or damn lucky. :p

True.

So, stop thinking about it. Or start imagining him as a maggot filled corpse.

Yes.

Shikou is Shikou. And nobody can make him something he's not.

This game is partially based upon luck.

Hard to stop thinking of it. Thinking of him as already dead tends to make things slightly worse for me... I really don't like my mind, at times, especially now.

...Of course... ~~It's just a bit harder when it is something I am...~~