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Well, I feel much more content now. My back may hurt from sleeping against a wall, but... At least Miss Sparrow finally realized what was happening.

As for that... Other problem... Mng. I'm probably going to have to ask them to schedule me for a session at the end of the school year.

I'm sure I can at least last that long, without the temptation showing itself again in a way that I can't stand it.

...I'm sure of it.

...It doesn't help that it feels like I'm starving now... Their words really did affect me. I didn't want them to, but... A part of me wanted to keep listening, and to give in... Now I can't help but imagine just how well Yamashita might have tasted, had I given in.

...I'm still glad that I didn't, though. I don't want to be taken away from this place. I'll... I'll just need to make sure that their words don't affect me as much, anymore.

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You called?

...Mn. What do you want?

I don't know, Monster. You're the one who talked about me. Means you want something with me.

Other than to stop calling me that? I was just telling Miss Theresa what happened, yesterday. That's all.

I'm not the one who people as a passive hobby, Monster.

It isn't a hobby.

...you're a cannibal?!

...........

I think you can see why I wanted it kept quiet.

...I don't even know what to think about you anymore.

...I guess it's better than you being a rapist like I thought it might be, but still...

That... That is expected, Miss Theresa... Besides, people only naturally fear something like that.

...

I just don't get you.

You can do things like help Suzume, and yet...

...Just because I have tastes like that, doesn't mean I was born without emotions and the ability to care, Miss Theresa.

...but you're still tempted.

Tempted, but not consumed.

...so how am I suppose to know you aren't going to put me, or someone I care about on the menu?

~~...although there is a particular monk that'd probably be... No, I just can't think of it.~~

Because, like I said, before I would even try anything, I would be making sure that I am sent off of the island back to the mainland. Possibly restrained in the process. Locked up, most likely.

Just a taste, that's all.

So you're a gourmet.

Not an active one.

Pity.

To you, of course. I'm the one who ended up not being the monster you wanted.

I didn't want it. I was simply pointing out the truth.

It might have been a truth, but it wasn't a truth I should accept.

Why not? The truth is honestly infinitely better than lies.